And tonight were my last night,
Would you forgive me not to say,
Would you let me be selfish one last time?
Because I would be scared you know,
You have given me wings till now,
But I do not know if anything awaits,
And I do not want to go...
So tonight I do not want wishes,
They are the seeds of regret,
I want to go through the pages of memories,
And hold them in my heart one last time...
I will get up earlier to see the red of dawn,
Listen to the stirs of the morning,
Hear you stumbling out of sleep,
The patter of little feet starting their day,
I will hold you a little tighter,
I will breath the perfume of little heads,
I will feel the warmth of their little bodies,
Savour every embrace.
I will watch every step you take,
And listen to every word you say,
I will look at every little gesture you make,
Just a little longer than any other day.
I will enjoy that precious smile,
That makes my heart beat faster,
I will look forward to lay in your arms tonight,
But before let me one last time,
Brush their hair and hug them tight,
Kiss their faces and feel their heart against mine,
Hear the tales of the day,
And the dreams of the ones to come,
Allow me to chase away the monsters under the bed,
One last kiss, one last story time,
I do not want to leave their room,
I just want to see one last sleepy smile,
This will be all I have of them...
I am in your arms now,
I feel safe next to you,
I am sorry for betraying our hopes,
I hope you will forgive my weakness,
For wanting one last happy memory,
To go to sleep tonight...
Tomorrow when I'll be gone,
Know that I have loved you,
And if I still am, then I still do...
But you still are,
So please cherish this time we had,
Keep our friendship for you were my best friend,
And knew me like no one else,
But please do not turn back,
Do not look down to where I am,
Do not tarnish what we had,
Please do not make me your fall,
From this cliff where you are standing now,
Rather please let me be the soar
In the first step you need to fly,
And as you were for me,
Please let me now be your wings,
Until you reach a place,
Where you can feel safe...
And watch again the sun rise at dawn,
Nahomie Hann
